I am just so tired.. actually i'm more mentally drained than physically exhausted.. i think my brain is working overtime.. thinking of so many things.. after sleeping for 10 hrs, you would be wide awake.. after sleeping 10 hrs, it still doesnt take away the million and one things on your mind.. i realise that i think a lot.. as in think about things outside of school work.. do i always have the dreamy, distant look on my face?.. i wish my fast-paced world will stop and let me catch up.. everyday, i just long for the end of the day.. every week, i just long for the end of the week.. i just live each day meeting deadlines, being nice to people, working my brains out and of course thinking.. about something.. somehow.. somewhere.. someone.. i wish i could know what my life story will turn out to be.. then i dont have to worry myself over all the "what if.." and the "i hope that.." and the "i wonder.."..
Today, i wrote in chinese class that my ambition was to be a taxi driver.. yeah.. what rubbish right.. but everyone else was writing about being doctors and teachers etc so i had to do something different.. and two words i've been hearing quite frequently this week: eye candy.. haha.. started with a few guys in my class whose hearts were melted by some girl walking past or sitting a few tables away.. hmm.. do i have my own eye candy?.. maybe.. maybe not.. haha.. now i really have to be careful what i write here.. even my msn nick a few months ago was "suggestive" and caused lots of controversy and speculation.. well.. so all i can say is.. i'm still waiting for a special someone to come melt my heart.. sometime, someday..