End of the year.. wad a year it has been.. and its time to reflect.. i know reflecting on things gone past kinda sucks sometimes coz you get reminded of the hurts, failures and tears.. and there were lots this year compared to the year before.. but i shall do it anyway.. this post isnt really planned.. its half an hour to the new year.. thirty minutes for me to slowly think of all thats gone past..
At first i thought of doing a month by month type of reflection but then it would be pretty boring.. i cant remember most of the details of what exactly happened anyway.. i'd like to think of the year as a whole..
New school.. new teachers.. cant say i like them all.. but they've all contributed in one way or other to get me promoted.. mass pe was terrible.. passing nafa was like giving a key to get out of jail.. new class.. took some time to get used to them.. i mean was closer to band people at first and then also my orientation group.. but eventually i now have some really great classmates to call as friends.. lunches, pool, aimless walking around orchard.. SBG haha.. Band.. hmmm... met some really great friends too.. i dont want to name names coz i feel really bad if any name got left out.. but band has been a bittersweet experience.. band pracs are really long and tiring.. but the times spent outside of band hours bring great memories.. suki sushi buffets, regular trips to esplanade, section lunches and steamboats, bbqs and dinners, going for concerts together, studying together, sometimes supper too, as well as walking around aimlessly..
School work has been a real eye opener.. after the joy of o lvls results release guess i was still in party mood.. but the pressure piled on.. tough decisions on subjects.. thankfully i woke up in time before the promos and salvaged the year academic-wise..
Took tough decisions to step down from church activities too.. really thankful to have the chance leading a cell group.. i think i've discovered a gift for teaching and explaining on the spot.. though its usually coz i didnt really prepare beforehand.. haha.. playing 1st cornet in band was a step up after many years on 2nd.. but juggling between two bands wasnt very kind on my lips.. and my resulting below-par performances didnt benefit either way..
Relationships-wise this year was tougher than 2004.. back then i was a bit happy-go-lucky even with o lvls.. but this hectice year really piled the pressure on.. and probably affected my emotions a little more.. God seemed really far away more often this year.. felt dry for long periods of time.. made many decisions on my own without Him.. but i thank Him anyway.. love-life wise its been quiet.. haha.. now you are all sitting up and reading with great interest.. well a few occasions of "maybe" and "i wonder" but no change to my single status and please dont ask me any more about this.. though with girls now a bigger part of my life this year it really made me think sometimes.. and i've discovered girls can be scary evil creatures.. toothpaste oreo.. i'll never forget that..

Happy memories, sad memories
flashes of hope, flashes of disappointment
times of trial, times of joy
quoting my friend's blog: it sucks living a life of regret
let go and let God
a new year a new start