I love songs by James Taylor, and if you have the time, you should go listen to them. no, dont download them illegally. just go to youtube. This christmas doesnt really seem like christmas does it? i think for the first time in my life, i am still quite busy at this time of the year. its like everybody is winding down for 2007 but i'm winding up. i've not seen how my house looks like during the day for the past week. oh, and i was secretary to a colonel for the past two weeks. and somehow i have survived. being a secretary is no fun i can tell you. i salute all out there who plan their boss's schedule, prepare his files, keep his documents, lock his door, make his tea, switch on his computer, make phone calls, buy his lunch and the million other little things they have to do. so anyway i saw some documents i was not supposed to see and made a few other mistakes, but the most important thing is that i survived. barely. one of the clerks was telling me that my generation of nsfs are "very unlucky" for being around at a time of restructuring. the previous batch lived in a time when there were 20 people in the office. now we only have half of that. i actually hate it that all my recent blog posts are full of angst, frustration, full of emo-ism and ranting. but i really cant help it. the worst part is that typing all these out doesnt make me feel better. sometimes i dont even know who i'm supposed to be angry with. or why exactly am i so upset. or how is it that when i wake up tomorrow, all these feeling disappear.