just came back from malaysia.. did quite a bit of thinking about lots of stuff.. i've given up trying not to think so much. i guess i naturally start thinking at any given oppurtunity. trying to be optimistic can sometimes be quite tiring. it is new year's eve but for the first time in my life i have nothing to look forward to come 2007. not that i was eagerly waiting for school to start each year, but that at least you knew what was going to happen.

it is furstrating when other people dont quite see it the same way as you do. they either have a different opinion or you feel that you have no right or authority to impose your view on them and thus keep what you think to yourself. so you keep the frustration to yourself, hoping that maybe after one night's sleep, it will disappear. or you hope that its just a small matter and convince yourself that there's no point thinking so much about it.

section bbq was good. i cant say it was fun or exciting because it wasnt, but not in a negative way. its more of an informal reunion dinner when we see the seniors again. talk about lots of stuff. catch up with whats been happening. if the tradition continues, i'll get to see the juniors. another reminder that i'm retired now.

bittersweet. argh.. i'm a bit frustrated now, why exactly i dont know. maybe its late and i'm tired. maybe i think too much. maybe its because i'm thinking of so many things right now but i just cant put them down into words.