At the start of the year, i told myself i could get through anything and everything if i had a happy-go-lucky kind of attitude and always smiling since nothing will unfaze me.. it didnt happen.. now.. i have a million and one things grabbing the attention of both my little brain and the short 24hrs each day.. sometimes in my daydream mood on the bus or mrt i wonder again whats life all about.. see sometimes going home all alone by public transport gives you time to think.. i previously didnt quite understand how some people could become so stressed and depressed.. now i know.. not that i'm at the point where i'm gonna jump off the building or smth.. but that i can hardly describe myself as more or less cheerful these days.. my friend put this on her blog: "when i am sad, i eat a cookie".. when i am sad i just close my eyes and sleep.. and dream that i'm far away from everything else.. i know there are lots of people worse off than me.. but if i could i would really want to spend a day or two on a deserted island or a mountaintop.. just to watch the sunrise and the sunset.. listen to the waves and feel the fresh air.. live in the peacefulness and quietness of it all.. all alone by myself.. just me and God..